too sad for dinner. so sorry to break down infront of u all.

bought ice cream to cheer myself up.

you throw all my pride and effort onto the floor.

you just don't know how much effort i had put in.

music shouldnt have any limitations.

i want my music in my own way, can't i?

音乐的 "乐" 和 快乐的 "乐" 是一样的

如今 我没有办法感受到音乐的乐趣

我看到的

只有千百个拘束 让音符无法自由的飞舞

音乐  这世上最美妙的东西

现在让我感到很 疲惫

如果  心脏可以再坚强一点

就好了..

tired.

suddenly feel like cutting off all connections with this world for a moment.

but i dun think the reality allow mi to do so.

how?

i wanna switch off my handphone for a day

i wanna slp on my comfy bed thruout a day

i wanna dance to my fav music till i drop

i wanna go out walk walk till my legs are tired

i wanna breath in the air that i used to breath

really very tiring..

dun worry.

just complaining.

pms-ing.

dear,

i nearly kill myself when u told me we cannot see each other till after operation.

i was over the moon when i found u and able to sneak in to talk to u.

ur hand were so cold at the moment.

i was so nervous and worried. but i cant show.

cos i bet u too, and u just trying to be calm so not to let us worry.

the worst hours were to wait.

luckily we have one another to make the atmosphere lively.

had a long conversation with ur mum, can tell that she really luv u.

and its only seems like we just had our last last xmas steamboat dinner ytd.

i tot i will be happy to see you when you were pushed out of the operation room safely.

but i was wrong.

the moment i saw the pale white you, my tears rolled down.

my heart ached like hell.

i cant bear to see you in such pain

hence i left the room.

i cried in the waiting area.

"everything is alright le" i said to myself over and over again.

i prayed to god.

i thanked god for watching over you over the operation.

and i made another request.

"please, dun let her suffer so much pain"

i hope god wun be angry for the greedy me.

remember what i told u?

i said if in future something happened to me like this too, i wan u all to be there for mi.

today then i realised, its actually a torture.

i shall take back my words.

i dun wan u all to experience such feelings again.

you are really very brave.

i pictured all the things that you had went through..

every tots is pinching my heart.

to be frank to u, i had been crying all these nites.

together with other girls, we were so helpless.

u are always stronger than i thought.

get well soon okie?

yummy food waiting for us.

and to all my girls,

everything is over le.

cheer up. it had been tough on u all these few days.

i wish this had made us more cherish one another.

beautiful days ahead.

i love you.

till we meet. (qouted from sasa)

最后一次见面的时候, 不是说好要健康吗?

突如其来的消息让我不知所错.

那么善良的女孩

怎么会....

当你告诉我你害怕时

我的眼泪涌了出来.

这时, 身为大姐的我

却没有能力为你做些什么.

这也让我有这样的想法:

"我们好像长大了"

得遇到一大堆从来都没有想过会遇到的事情

得处理一大堆从来都没有感受过的心情

得面对一大堆从来都没有碰过的现实

这一切, 对我们而言

好象有点残酷.

人生, 一点都不好玩..

不过

你要坚强

我知道你一定会.

如果可以我想为你痛.

不要害怕了

大家都在为你祈祷

要快点好起来

I'll be there praying for you.

OMG JJ GAVE ME A ZEN VISION!!!

..

..

..

right...

we are so bo liao.

he came disturb me when i was working seriously with sasa's thingy.

and ooops, downloading dbsk's live perf. LOL.

k lah. happy deevapali everyone.

nites.

last nite ard 12plus, when i was chatting on the phone happily with ling, suddenly keng pm mi in msn "yunho went hospital!"

in case u dunno.

dbsk latest image.uknow yunho is the one in pink.

it was during recording of a tv prog in korea, ard 9pluspm.
a girl fan sneaked into their restrm and gave yunho a bottle of juice and a letter.
he vomitted immediately after drinking one mouthful.
there is blood in it, but there's no tear on his lips.
it then discovered that the drink was mixed with glue. and the girl was an anti fan of dbsk, who hate yunho.
the letter was a threatening letter.

in case u wondering y he just drink it liddat, cos dbsk always trust cassiopeia (their fanclub name) and would always accept their drinks and food without any fan bei xin. but tt girl just got her luck and sneaked into the recording as a "fan"!

dbsk all were in lost and disappointment. esp hero jaejoong (middle) and micky yoochun (blue).
ard 1plus am, the studio is still in chaos, with fans crying and unstable dbsk.
this incident definately shocked the entertainment circle, esp dbsk was treated very well by all the senior celebs who worked with them before.

that girl turned herself in to the police today at ard 6pluspm after sawing all the news and realised the seriousness of everything.

if court, she will be sentenced max 3 yrs in jail.

she is onli 20, first yr in uni com science. a member of anti tvxq club 2 ys ago.

i am so sad that there is actually an anti tvxq club.
budden anti anti lah, they oso nv do anything to her why she hate them so much...
so kong bu.. so horrible..

wat was she thinking when putting the poison into the drink?
how do she feel when yunho accepted ur juice n letter happily?
how do she feel when the news of him getting into hospital is spread?
is she happy? are she really tat happy?
i wish she can get a taste of it... but i dun wan to be tt evil as her..
3 yrs in jail for her is too easy.i seriously wanna bash her up.
glad tt she give in herself..

sickening girl. ur life is ruin.

she said everything was supposed to be prank.
come on, its attempting murder lor!

and this is the peak period for dbsk cos they are promoting their 3rd album.

yunho as the leader, and as the main dancer of the grp,his role is impt.
thx god now he is better now.

and i am really kinda touched and surprised.

the tvxqsg forum is updated every 5 min with latest news from korea staight.

amazed.
its like they have those "SNG live calls" from fans who went to the recordings, and put wat they heard,saw and know onto the webbie and share it ard.
the time, the actions taken, the expression of people in the scene.

totally amazing.

thanks for all the updates.
korea is so far away and we are here, as worried as everyone in korea.
millions of appreciation for all the translators.

pray for yunho's health return.
pray dbsk would be strong.
pray everything;s gonna be alright..

anyway, this affect me, keng, jinleen and ling so much since last nite.
i finally calm myself down at ard 3 plus and get down to serious work.

recently xeno invited me to join in a production project for Kovan CC.
a promotional video for the newly built Adventurous and Recreational Site.

had a meeting ytd and today.

glassboard in kovan cc. this time doing outside proj, abit weird.


just in case u forgot how i look like.


mike's pencil bag. SO KE AI!


my ke ai de cartoon char, highly luv by dennis, the chairman. lol.

abit scare leh. working with outside people.
summore they are those with a little bit backgrg.
i like abit find trouble for myself.

hope i can manage my ihp and this ba.

fighting to all.

miss u girls so much. waiting for 20th.

http://miracleluvsa.jconserv.net/index.php

our newborn baby.

too bad onli registered members can see content.

neneninene~

below is an email sent i got it from samsam. and i tot it would be good if i post over here.

read it alright, esp girls.

Dear all,

Pls convey this message to the one you love, your family members, for their safety.


This is important information for females of ALL ages .
Guys - please forward to the female members of your family and all your female friends and associates.

When this was sent to me, I was told to forward it to my lady friends. I forwarded it to most everyone in my address book. My men friends have female friends and this information is too important to miss someone. Please pass it along .

A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts :

1) The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle.   They are most likely to go after a woman with a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.

2) The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women who's clothing is easy to remove quickly.  Many of them carry scissors around specifically to cut clothing.

3) They also look for women on their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.

4) Men are most likely to attack & rape in the early morning, between 5:00 a.m. and  8:30 a.m.

5) The number one place women are abducted from/attacked is grocery store parking lots. Number two is office parking lots/garages .   Number three is public restrooms.

6) The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to another location where they don't have to worry about getting caught.

7) Only 2% said they carried weapons because rape carries a 3-5 year sentence but rape with a weapon is 15-20 years.

8) If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming

9) These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas, or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it.

10) Several defense mechanisms he taught us are: If someone is following behind you on a street or in a garage or with you in an elevator or stairwell, look them in the face and ask them a question, like what time is it, or make general small talk: "I can't believe it is so cold out here", "we're in for a bad winter." Now you've seen their face and could identify them in a line-up; you lose appeal as a target.

11) If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell STOP or STAY BACK ! Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back . Again, they are looking for an EASY target.

12) If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yell I HAVE PEPPER Spray and holding it out will be a deterrent.

13) If someone grabs you, you can't beat them with strength but you can by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm (between the elbow and armpit) OR  in the upper inner thigh  VERY VERY HARD . One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands -  the guy needed stitches.

Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it hurts.

14) After the initial hit, always GO for the GROIN . I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he's out of there.

15) When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible . The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.

16) Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts!!!

You may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble

PLEASE  READ  THEN  FORWARD  THIS  TO  EVERY  WOMAN. YOU  KNOW,  IT'S  SIMPLE  STUFF  BUT   IT COULD  SAVE  HER  LIFE

_____________________________________________________________

tmd i always tied hair leh. shall i get a can of pepper spray?

anyway, had a belated bday celebration for samsam ^^ on 7th.

dinner in chicago steakhs. DAMN NICE N BUDGET.

fotos to be uploaded soon. busy now. tatas.

and when i dun haf enough to spend...

>.<

DEAR MEMBERS,   Please be informed that with effect from 1st October 2006, the 10-class and 20-class packages will be offered to current members EXCLUSIVELY. Package prices remain the same.   Our NEW members who sign up from 1st October 2006 onwards will be introduced to the new package plan.   For your continued support to Studio Wu, please rest assure that we will not be changing the 10-class or 20-class packages in the near future. It will be offered exclusively to Membership Number 0001 - 3660   Should you be interested in our new class package plan, here are the highlights:   - Registration fee waived for new members - Unlimited classes for adults is at $120 per month & $90 per month for students (Great Deal!) - 4-class package for adults is at $70 per month & $55 per month for students - No expiration date for unlimited packages! - You can terminate anytime after the 2nd month of membership or stay with us as long as you are happy and enjoy the perks - One trump card (equivalent to one month of free classes) will be given to members when they    commit to us for 1 year. Subsequent trump cards will be given away every 6 months.   (You can accumulate your trump cards to waive off your monthly membership renewal fee) - Monthly fee will be waived for medical reasons, compassionate leave, overseas travel, in-camp   trainings. (for an accumulated period of 30 days) - Absent membership can be applied for extended stay away from Singapore due to studies or work   Members currently holding the 6-month or 1-year unlimited package, we sincerely want to invite you to convert to our new package plan at no extra or hidden cost! You will be entitled the perks from the date that you signed up for the 6-month or 1 year package. Should you convert, some of you will be receiving your trump card soon. (Please contact our consultants @ 6223 4722 for more details)   Trust us that the Studio Wu Team will continue to provide you with more variety of dance classes, activities, events, workshops, performances and more! We guarantee that there will be more classes coming your way!!   See you at our DANCE BAZAAR this Friday and our other TGIF activites lined up for October!   Thank you for being with us...

ROAR!

how can u do this to me~~~ T_T